My story is not clear to many people, and wasn’t clear on MTV either. I just want to give my opinion on this though. Once you become pregnant I believe you as a person change, you become more alert, responsible, and willing. Being pregnant comes with it’s hard times, as well as its good time. First and most off you have to pick a decision regarding the baby inside your tummy. I know that’s not an easy one! I contemplated on abortion, adoption, and keeping the baby. Abortion was actually my first thought. I was not ready to become a mother, and sure as hell wasn’t ready to give up my life for a child. Then I got out of that selfish ways, and thought to myself.. (This child wasn’t asked to be brought here, and why should it suffer for my careless mistakes?) It just didn’t make since to me so, adoption came in second, I wanted my child to have a GOOD life, I wanted him to live with no worries, and be very comfortable. I wanted to provide him with all he needed, and I was scared I couldn’t. I didn’t have a job at the time, and it was really hard to find one, My baby’s father was only fifteen at the time, and I was failing out of school. This was not the right time to have a baby! Then I realized, I could try HARDER to get a job, I had support, and that’s all I needed! I never really liked the fact of someone else raising my child anyway. So, I decided to keep my blessing.
GOD HAS A PLAN! If I couldn’t make it, God wouldn’t have blessed me with this child. I took on the responsibility’s as a mother. I did whatever I could in order to give my son the best life ever. I got on the right track, I got focused in school, need to say I applied myself, and made nothing lower than a high 90. I got a job. I’m not on WIC or MEDICAID. Zak and I both pay for food, formula, and doctor visits. We have too much dignity to ask for help from the government, plus we can make it without all the tax payers help.
Becoming a mother opened my eyes in many ways, and made me grow up faster than I had planned. I wouldn’t trade my son in for anything! I’m on the right track for him to have a better future, and I promise him he will always come first, and will always be taken care of.
I’m not going to lie, it gets hard taking care of a baby. I get tired from working all week, then coming home and taking on my other responsibilitys. I get sick from only seeing my son at nights, and on the weekends. It’s not easy, and I have a feeling it just may get harder from here on.
TWITTER: I’m a mother of the internet, and online I wanna be a teenager still. Enough said, Just stop judging me on my tweets, because truth is you really have no idea how things are when I’m not sitting behind this laptop.
“ Getting pregnant doesn’t mean your life is over it just means there’s a new beginning to it.
My boyfriend Zak, is a great father, and boyfriend. I want to commend him for taking on his responsibilities. I will be honest. I never thought he would’ve stuck around, and cared for me and the baby like he is. The day we found out I was pregnant he promised to be here for us regardless of what happened, and he did just that! I might of spoken bad of him before, on a couple of occasions, but that was all out of anger! I’ve never seen a 15 year old step up like he has, besides on the movies. He has done everything he could to keep me around, make sure the baby has everything he needed, plus more. I hate when I read tabloids talking about he’s a bad father, and he’s just to young to understand. WELL, they’re all wrong! HE might of been young, but he still pulled through. Since Kay’Den was born I probably bought 3 packs of diapers, and around 4 jugs of formula. All the others were bought by Zak! He never makes me spend my money whether it’s for Kay’Den or me. He pays for everything, not that I don’t try he just does because he’s that kind of person. He has given up everything just to be a dad, and not because he had to, but because he wanted to.
I just wanted everyone to see my feelings, and opinions on Zak’s fathering, and Zak I just wanted to thank you for all you’ve done for our little family. For sticking by my side when I messed up, and for always believing in me. Thank you for letting me save money in my bank account, and you emptying yours to take care of us. Thank you for putting up with me all this time. you’re a wonderful father and soon to be husband! I love you for all you’ve done baby!
RT: That awkward moment when you let someone look through your phone & their eyes get big & you realize you forgot to delete some x-rated pics .: That awkward moment when you set them as your twitter background.
( AYY ! you dont really wanna see em’ XRATED pics i got on my phone. TWITTER wasn’t shit.)
ima do commuinity service tomorro “/: I’m going to go out on a limb and guess that, that’s not voluntary.
( Nope, it wasn’t! I have community service due to my tickets I’ve gotten in the past.)
RT: Men take care of your kids. You’re man enough to jump in that pussy then be man enough to take care of your kids #Chuuch: Since when does “I have a boner” translate to “I am ready, willing, and able to be a father”?
( Well since you grown enough to have sex, your grown enough to taje care of your responsibilitys. POINT BLANK , don’t have sex if you not prepared to take care of a baby that MIGHT be made.)
RT: Sooo.. niggas can fuk the homegirl & get a high five.. but if a bitch fuk the homie she’s a hoe! #HowThatWork: I’m pretty sure they call that dignity.
( Okay but i still don’t get it…)
I wan some cookie dough: Ah switching it up….cookie dough is a slang term for weed.
( FIRST off, I’ve never heard any one of my friends, family, etc ever use cookie dough as a replacement for weed. NEVER have I herd anyone on the street , say, “AY , you tryna buy that cookie dough?” lol but foreal. I never knew this, so thanks for educating me! And I really did want some chocolate chip cookie dough!)
i think it cute when a man take in a child thats not his ,: I think it’s cute when a guy….opens doors….
( Well I believe I can open my doors myself!)
so my mamma finally buying me a new car , ican now say im spoiled. i wanna mazda3 sooo bad but then bbydaddy got a Mercedes goin through ma mind: I’m sure that’s going to happen.
( Is it not going to happen? MY mama got bread, if you didn’t know.)
i hate i wasnt there last night baby after you got into that fight , had ta wake up ta the $$ though.: Wait….baby daddy gets into a fight….we’re not mad about the fight, we’re mad about not being there?
( Can’t get mad if my baby needs to defend himself.)
be spoilin me wit his $$$ , shoes, rocs, and clothes. dont faget gas . lol: With what money….he’s 16….
(Well, I’m not going to lie he has money, and has had money!)
RT: The type of bitch that will wake her nigga up to head .. Then ride um till he falls asleep. #RealAF: I thought the way to a man’s heart was through his stomach?
(Well not out here where we at!)
SO i dont get the point of Jessica , and Megan having a fanpage , like WTF ! y’All hoes aint famous, shit niether or we but still: Ironically both Jessica Ward and Megan Nelson have more fans….
( but fact is I don’t even be on my fan pages, so why should I care? Come on alot of people agree with me, so ohwell. I’m just stating my opinion on em’.
so we finally got the caprice workin , finna fix it up and sell it. && this weekend we gon go get the crownvicc: I guess the Mercedes didn’t happen.
( Thing is Babydaddy just bought the caprice, and the crown vicc. WE got the slab, and now I’m getting the little nice girly car. )
&& I’m scareddd because my baby out workin “/: Would you like to explain what he does at 16 that pays so well and is so dangerous?
( It really doesn’t matter, the only thing matter is that he bringing in the money.)
- fuck deez niqqas, we ain’t worried bout emc: EMC is a gang….great…so now you’re gang affiliated. Awesome.
( That was a grammer mistake, IT was suppose to be em’ not EMC. Come on!)
- he say tha pussy so GOOD he miqht cum out tha rubber. AYY !: I’m pretty sure that’s not a good idea.
- she so fineee , she can ride my face: I can legitimately say that’s never been a “want” of mine.
- pull out tha magnum: So i guess that whole born again virgin thing is out the window….at least you’re wrapping it up.
( All three of these tweets are songs, you’re not from Dallas so maybe you’re unfamiliar with them!)
- my son gone be a sexy light skinned niqqa watch , them hoes gon stay on em !: Ugh….how about we set up legitimate goals….like being a doctor….
( I’m just saying, he is. I’m sitting here stating the obvious! Who ever said I haven’t set up goals for my son?)
- RT lilTJones_ToFly: Yu know yu #HisDownBitch when he acting like a ass .. but yu still miss him & still ganna be there for him! Fukin #RideOrDie ish!: Retweeting your baby daddy’s mistress…..ironic….odd….
( Let me say this one thing, Tiffany and I are cool, and I’m tired of all the negativity we BOTH getting for this! Let it be told, Zak fucked with her, OHWELL! Let it be shouldn’t that be between us anyway?) GTFO
IT’S MY SEX LIFE!
If I wanna post things about sex, then let me do it. Why is it bothering y’all. If i wasn’t on TV y’all wouldn’t even bother saying anything about my twitter, or Facebook. If its that vile, and nasty then stop following me, ignore it, and let it be! It doesn’t affect you one way or another!
so yalls wedding still on for december?
Not in December, I’m calling it off and waiting til I’m settled down career wise.
Okay! First of all let me make things straight.
I already know why you’re mad. Your mom has said it under bush before that she think it my fault that Zak is not around anymore. She didn’t say it directly, but she did say it. SO, I’m guessing your mad too huh? I have not took Zak away from anyone, and haven’t made him do anything he hasn’t wanted to do. He has a family now, and I honestly believe he would love to be with you all more, but quite frankly that is just not how its going to be. YES, we can be a family 24/7 now, We make enough to get our own place, and take a shot at life our self. We are making everything work out.
Second, Everyone acts as if I’m the one causing Zak to have all these problems. When you don’t know half of it. Where you there when he cheated on me, and lied to my face, when he hit me as hard as he could, when we fought behind closed doors, when he text me hurtful things, when he treats me bad? NO ONE knows the things that go on. Ask Zak why he didn’t see his son for a week.. Wanna know? Because I told him not to take my son to his girlfriends house, and what did he do . took him. But as you care. It was one of y’all that took him! right? Other than that I have never kept Kay’den away from him. Its been things hes done !
Its been both ways of fighting and arguing. Ask him the reason I went up to Trinity last year, betchu he didn’t tell you huh?
Who has been there for him when he needed something one of y’all wouldn’t give him, or when he needed to talk and y’all were not there, or when he’s sitting her crying because of what y’all said.( just last night).
You act as if I wont be here for him through everything, when me and him know that aint true.
Like you said it’ll be on me if I don’t have y’all help. We’ll I’m saying now I don’t want it, and you wont catch me asking for it every AGAIN! I promise you that one !! I can do perfectly fine on my own, and watch I will prove it to you. I’m not the one to lay up someones ass, so therefore I can say I’m done wit ease.
Last thing, The way I treated him If im not mistaken he’s been cheating on me since August of last year, but I did him wrong at the beggining of the relationship, and it was just a sex thing. ( A one night stand). But he’s making relationshipd with females, sending them pics, and skyping with them, but I’m the one that hurt him. huh?
All I have to say now, but i will finish my thought later today